There are impressions that have been made upon my soul over the years, dark recesses where wounds once took place…and in these places the lies have formed. Fear and anxiety, worry and distrust…all of this wells up from somewhere that seems to be within me, but it’s just an illusion. It is not coming from within me, for You are within me now, and the entire kingdom of God is what would flow freely through every crack and wound in my soul if that realization were ever to be made complete.
I struggle with it, though. For some reason it’s difficult for me to remain steadfast in this confidence that You are for me, that You are with me, that You are madly in love with me, and that we were meant to be amazing together forever.
For some reason, the lies and the pain seem so much more familiar and natural to me. But that is all changing now. Jesus, Your peace is beginning to become my natural habitat, and to seem more normal to me than the things that I came to believe were the real me for all those years.
I rest now in this knowledge, in this perfect assurance of Your good will towards. me. I soak in it. I wait here and allow it to seep into every part of me that still hurts and weeps.
I am Yours, and You are mine.
I want to stay here forever…and the beauty of it is, I never have to leave.
