Is there anything separating us, Lord? No. Your blood erased all boundaries. So why do I listen to the condemning thoughts that pretend to accuse and deride? All things considered, they are obviously from the enemy. So why give in to them, or give ear at all?
Because I am distracted. Because I am not focused on you. Because I carelessly allow my attention to be consumed with ungodly things. But why do I do this? Because I doubt the solidity of your commitment to me. Because I feel certain of my own impending failure, and because, ultimately, I believe that your faithfulness hinges on my own performance, which, though it has been tried, has been oft found untrue, and which therefore presents a foundation of sand.
Jesus, help me to until this knot. Help me to know first and foremost that you are with me, and that you are for me, and that the one who is against me is therefore not you. You have promised this in your Word.
Only with a confidence in these main, basic things can even the slightest actual progress be made. Anything outside the realm of this already-perfect love amounts to law, and law cannot cohabitate with faith. Any attempt at it will produce nothing but an awkward symbiosis, born of fear, and doomed to failure. The true Christian faith is based on faith alone; favor without merit or qualification. It is to this faith that the law and all the prophets always pointed; God, please open my eyes in every way to behold these wonderful things.
I will not be drawn aside, to the right hand or the left, to behold and absorb the characteristics of either extreme. Every place on the spectrum of this teeter-totter religion system is equally in error. It is all down here, based in Earth things, based in flesh. God, your system is up there, and in you, and through you, and therefore in me, but at a level beyond flesh, beyond fear and striving, beyond the fray of whatever this is that haunts us and keeps us here against the will of our spirit (our true self.)
I will be distracted by nothing and no one, nothing will stop me from diving in anymore. Here in the present moment — always here, no matter what or when it is in other terms, I am always here with you, I see that now. Nothing can separate me from this anymore.
